Empire Of The Senseless

‘It shall be a monstrous occasion if we simply sit on the edge of this mattress all day. We’ll fuck as much as we can to numb loneliness with ecstasy, then we’ll go insane.’ She rips the ballpoint pen from my fingers, I’m ignoring her; she doesn’t like to be ignored. I run out of ink. ‘Wouldn’t you rather write in pink baby? You’ve been feeling so sassy lately. I can tell by the way your naked ass reaches for me when I make you wait.’ I say nothing. I keep writing. Pinks and purples make me high. Spring sticks on the back of my tongue like a song I haven’t sung yet. ‘I want to sing!’ I scream suddenly, breaking her silence and mine. ‘I want the ocean! I want to jump on Jade, throw her sweet frame on a ferry and sail away. I want my toes sinking into her unfulfilling tides. ‘Stay!’ Then she goes away. I kick and scream, like the bratty little baby that I am. I don’t care. I am more alive by having known her again. I hold my breath; I cannot breathe. I reach. She recedes. I try to scream, nothing comes out. I s